school has been so stressful!

Labels: stress

hmm.. i was asking mum about going for service.. and faced rejection.. this is how our conversation went-

Sharon: SO tmr can i go too?
Mum: why u wanna keep going.. i never make noise then u decide ur gonna keep going there? u wanna join christianity is it.. ur too young for that ok..
S: huh but im just going for fun! i never said i wanna join, i just go see see for fun..
M: then u better knoe ur priorities hor..
S: ... ... *speechless*


and so.. amy came home and i was discussing this conversation with her.. she also has the zzz face.. well.. she agreed to go for graduation IF she wakes up in time. and i told her im gonna come knocking on her room door.. wahaha.. but then i'd have to get permission first.. and oh well. she's with me, she tells me gambattei and then troops off to bed. sigh.. so anyway, some enlightening words from her: search ur intentions, tell God and then ask mum. .. hmm so off i went to shower and searched my intentions..

i think at first i joined any of their activities is just for being with my wonderful new-found friends.. ie. everyone at harvester.. and then after that slowly, i think my intentions of going to service.. .. well, not exactly no longer for the ppl.. but now theres an added element- that i wan to listen to sermon and see what they have to say. maybe i want to find out more. its still non-committal but i reali feel like i want to listen to the sermon. i knoe theres still the underlying reasons of going becos of my friends.. its the transitional stage, perhaps? i mean if suddenly the ppl are a totally different bunch i doubt i would be as enthusiastic about going.. however i probably might still want to go.. perhaps its the idea of going for service, something novel, that attracts me? i dont knoe. and i dont knoe about telling God, but im gonna ask mum anyway.. hopefully i can go.. lucks to me..




au revoir~

Labels: sunday service, youths

church camp was amazing.. i love the weather, and sermons were somewhat interesting. the pastor taught not only christian ways, but life skills as well. thinking about it, the things she said of forgiveness and of repentence are not just applicable in a christian life. in a way, practising these in life is useful towards living a life more fruitfully. what would be the point of bearing grudges? and by being unrepentent life cannot go on properly. the same mistakes are just gonna be made over and over again. what is sin? to me, its anything bad for u. and to do anything bad to urself would be shortening ur own life, or just making it more unbearable and miserable. so whether or not u live ur life for god as a christian, keeping with the christian values are reali useful in life. however, one thing that kinda scared me was the altar calls at every single service in camp.. i got so afraid! cos i reali didnt understand wat was going on, and it didnt help that i was seeing so many ppl cry and wail, fall down, throw up.. the very first time i saw it was a total culture shock. but slowly, gradually various ppl explained it to me and i started getting used to the idea, thou not any less frightened when it happens.. but i did learn to help shift the chairs so that ppl had space to fall.. haha.. i guess church camp did lots to help me knoe more about harvester.. and i made many many new friends, which im thankful for.. thankyou to everyone for helping me feel more at home.. im glad i made friends even with ppl from zones other than the west.. ppl like ziazek, dawn, darren, etc.. and also the west zone ppl like jasmine, josiah, jacquelynn, jim, and everyone else.. so anyway, church camp opened my eyes to more stuff, and opened more doors for me.. went for the service on sunday after church camp.. think it was ok- the pastor only talked about luke 15.. about fathers day. haha.. the ultimate father's heart.. so yah..

Labels: church camp, sunday service, youths

why hello everyone.. :D im finally back to updating my spider-webbed page.. maybe i shld use a duster? hahaha.. anyways had a boring 1st 2 weeks.. nothing much reali, a tiny bit of shopping only.. bought a pretty pretty-in-pink billabong jacket, which im wearing now .. stupid excuse that the morning is cold, its reali kinda foggy out there today.. not a haze kinda way but rather misty kinda way.. as thou at seventeen levels we're up in genting..

yesterday went to changi chalets for the bbq which i thot i wouldnt be going for.. haha ended being persuaded and caved in by jiajun.. he skipped his golf training and we met up to go there.. so anyway the silly girls made water bombs and were playing around like crazy la.. haha.. oh and jiajun dyed his hair, its so so POLY now la.. hahaha plus hes got the tan to look it.. poly dude.. hahaha.. then play around, talk abit, watch abit tv.. had fun la, been a long time since we hung out like that.. sigh.. went back with jiahan and singkiat and glennda.. which, sorry to say but i have a feeling glennda left at that time becos of jiahan.. awww shucks. so irttg. anw yeah so the long long 2hr journey home.. boring.. overall was fun la.. hahaha..



today~

OD meeting as usual later.. how fcking boring.. im getting sick of the whole olympic dream thingy.. its always gonna remain a dream.. HAHAHA.. like im cursing my own project la.. and then whatever la.. supposed to go to sentosa for the seventeen beach party.. but but STUPID JIAJUN!!! pangseh-ed me suddenly. 1pm event starts, 8am tell me oh eh im not feeling well cannot go liao.. wth.. tell me earlier la.. sigh, how i find ppl go with me.. zzz.. was looking forward to going, but now i have nobody to go with. its a stupid pity. and i cant find anyone to go with me.. :'( i reali wanna goooooo.. why nobody's free de.. ahhhhh~~ irritating. nvm whateverrr. i'll see if anyone can go with me, otherwise .. i dont knoe?! grrrh-


bye. too angry for long goodbyes.