oh im so glad school has finally started proper. haha its like the orientation-period-slash-PAE-period totally sucks. its the worst time to get thru.. its when you see everyone slacking and playing but you know you cant afford to. its becos of doing that the previous year that youre faced with retaining. to repeat the mistake would be fatal and much less to say stupid. but its also the time u cant help yourself, where the school doesnt really keep that tight reins on ur work yet. still it hurts pretty bad inside when u see all your previous besties working hard and stressing over the upcoming a's while you have effectively nothing to do since its the "first three months". and it hurts pretty bad inside when you see the year ones have their own OG to bond with and new friends and stuff but youre kicked aside into something called OG32. and youre ostracized by everyone else; your own batch cos "youre too stupid", and the year ones batch still cos "youre too stupid". and in OG32 we're just like a big family cos theres nobody else for us. and theres all the times where ppl have somewhere to call "home" where they belong. during CNY celebrations, orientation 2. those are the loneliest. we call them our little retainees gathering. but to be honest, it hurts to be ostracized this way. can you imagine when orientation 2 admin days was going on, the whole J1 cohort was listening to talks while the retainees were told we can do whatever we wanted but in school. on one hand i appreciate that we arent expected to sit thru the sickening talks. but on the other hand, i wish they had something else for us to do. even when we tried hanging out at the LN Mess we were told to leave cos we "making the place look very unprofessional". what the fuck?! haha. painful times are over- i hope- and now its time to start working proper. Thank God for that. hahaha


i really am much happier in the arts stream right now rather than the science stream. seriously i dont think i was ever much of a sciency person to begin with. but cos of stupid hopes, i decided to gamble and go for science. but now i realise that arts stream is a much better investment to make. lols weird comparison to investments but its true! yah. so right now im just immersing myself in everything arts, especially literature. hopefully i get a chance to offer H3 literature by the end of my year 1. yeah pray hard for me please. on the subject of literature, i auditioned for the part Goneril (King Lear's eldest daughter) as part of the drama that JJC is putting up for SYF 2008. hopefully i get the part, cos competition's quite stiff. but thankfully the 2 lead actresses of jj drama fest (mind you ive nothing against them, theyre really nice) plays auditioned for the role of cordelia! im quite thankful cos i was feeling really inferior prior to auditioning when i found out they were both trying for a role. made me quite nervous as a result. haha. well now that all is well and good. i just need to pray really hard! hahaha pleeeease give me that role. hahaha. i really think goneril would be a fun part to play. acting like a total bitch and hypocrite. muahahaha!


ps/ march holidays were gooood! i went KL shopping and bought a whole tonne of stuff. hehs. oh i learnt this in literature: hyperbole, saying that i bought a whole tonne of stuff is a hyperbole cos its grotesque over-the-top exaggeration. hahaha.



ta for now! bedtime after a long day.